Thursday, 10 January 2008

• math, math, and more math

  so, theres been a lot of stuff on my mind.

  mostly zach and my weight.

  and they're not good thoughts.

  which is sad, i guess, considering

  i don't know. my relationship with zach is complicated.

  he loves me, i love him.

  but he doesn't think it's going to last, which is making me think that

  and also pushing me away.

  like super away, to the point where i don't care if people know i'm dating him

  i just want a guy, who doesn't say it, but really wants it to last.

  i mean, zach means a lot to me, like a lot a lot.

  but he pisses me off more than he makes me smile

  and i'm always made at him for a stupid reason.

  just cause he does so many stupid things.

  that make me wanna push him off a bridge

  and i know i have strong feelings, but i dunno if it's love.

  i love hearing it though.

  which scares me.

  cause i fell for justin hard, and he broke my heart.

  which makes me question if zach is a rebound or not.

  but i dunno.

  i don't know what love is.

  who am i kidding?

   

  and i'm still fat.

  but gonna fix that starting tomorrow :D

   

   

  and i'm just idk. blah now.

  life is crazy, and seems to be constant.

  not getting worse, not getting better.

  so we'll see what happens :D

   

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